We all have space around us. Sometimes we let a few inside it and get comfortable or discard a few to find comfort. When things are too harsh or too intense, we reduce the space for a solution or temporarily go out of it to find peace. The space around Vijay was filled with silence and anxiety created from the loneliness. On a Saturday night, around 10 pm, Vijay was returning from his office. Because of a national holiday, the populous and ever-crowded Borivali station hardly had 2-3 people waiting for a train. In the long platform, Vijay could see an old man on his right-hand side from a distance surfing through his newspaper. And to his left corner, there was a vegetable vendor who was enjoying loud music on his China phone.
After scanning them for few seconds, Vijay lost interest in them and came back to a space filled with anxiety and silence. In between the polluted brown clouds, subtle blue light of the half-moon sneaked out and filled the rail tracks below. Vijay found this romantic and wanted to share this sight with someone. He saw the empty seat next to him and sighed. The emptiness was heavy on the seat, his sight, and his heart. His long stern shoulders have never felt the texture of silky hair, the gaps between his 5 fingers were always aloof and all his five senses have never tasted the pleasure of a desired companion.
Vijay kept his backpack on his lap, leaned back more on the bench to get comfortable, and continued to stare at the moon. A fast train from another platform rushed through the silence and created a piece of rhythmic music. Somehow the rhythmic sound, cool breeze, and the scene of the moon in front of him made him drowsy. Within few seconds, Vijay dozed off.
A few minutes after that moment, the full moon got covered by clouds. The brown clouds changed their shade to black and got denser. A sudden roar of thunder shook Vijay from his nap. The old guy on the left folded his newspaper and kept it in his back, the vegetable vendor covered his vegetable bag with a plastic sheet and they both took out an umbrella and kept it ready in their hand. Because the shade that covered the platforms was small and if a person walks out to catch a train, he or she will get exposed to the rains for few seconds.
Just when Vijay was regretting his decision not to bring an umbrella, the clouds opened up and started pouring. Also, just when Vijay thought the rain would stop before the arrival of the train, a local wagon entered the platform. Vijay had no time to think. He just ran towards a compartment got partially wet from head to the hip and sat next to the window. He loosened a button or two, took out his handkerchief, and started wiping his face.
After ten seconds, the train started to move from the platform slowly. When the rain and train started to gain some momentum, a girl jumped into the compartment. This took Vijay by surprise. How can this happen? – He asked himself.
Usually, he meets old people, middle-aged men, or even weird people in his journeys. This was the first time he met a pretty girl in a lonely compartment. The girl was partially wet and few drops of water were dripping from her forehead and long hair. She subtly saw Vijay and sat on the seat which was adjacent to him. The train gained more speed and an awkward silence prevailed in the compartment. The drops from Vijay’s shirt and the girl’s long hair fell on the metal floor. It created a thumping sound that added to the rhythm of the train. Vijay’s curiosity rose and he gradually tried to see her from the corner for his eyes without turning his face. She had put her hair in sideward to dry it. The fabric of her green top was dark because of the water and her skin had small pearls of water waiting to be wiped. This sight was inviting and he found her attractive. His discreetness in seeing her reduced. He turned his face, winded his eyes, and properly saw her. Suddenly when the girl gave eye contact, Vijay froze to death. He did not know how to react. He was blank for few seconds. He was happy to get her attention and he was embarrassed for getting caught at the same time. Vijay focused his mind, came back to his senses, and greeted her with a hello. The girl responded with a blank nod without any expression. After this, they both looked out of the window and got drifted in thoughts.
Several stations passed but the distance between Vijay and the girl remained the same. The train suddenly stopped before a station in the outer area. "I think an express train will pass our route, this might take some more time" – The girl said to Vijay. Vijay got a little comfort now. He replied with a sigh and saw his watch. Though he showed frustration on his face, he thanked his lucky stars in his mind for the special time. Vijay stood up and went near the exit. By that time rain had stopped and the sky got cleared. He inhaled the after rain pleasantness and started whistling an old regional song. After few seconds, the girl joined him and whistled in sync. The girl stood up and joined him near the exit. They both finished the chorus part and laughed together. The dark clouds in the sky disappeared and the half-moon appeared again. Vijay saw the moon and saw to his left. This time the emptiness was absent. The girl was standing next to him. This was the moment he waited for. He pointed out the moon to her and she said pretty. The scene exactly happened as he imagined it 1000 times in the past. Vijay felt a magical sensation with her and the girl started singing more interesting songs with Vijay. She was gradually opening up to him.
In joy, Vijay extended his arm for a handshake and introduced his name – Vijay from Church Gate. The girl brushed a single strand of hair from her face and extended her arm to him. I am Veronica from Virar- She replied!
Though the touch remained for a small time, Vijay's senses strongly grasped the warmth and tenderness her hand expressed during the handshake. The long-awaited express train finally crossed them and the local train started moving. Vijay and Veronica came back to sit. Vijay mustered up some courage and sat next to Veronica. They both stretched their legs and rested them on the opposite seats. For the next ten minutes, they discussed several topics that circled their 9-5 jobs. Tough they both met each other the same day; a familiar sense of connection grew between them. Vijay’s imagination went deeper. He gained more confidence and slightly extended his shoulder towards her. He wanted to smell her hair and feel its texture on his shoulder.
But before anything could happen, the speed of the train and the excitement between them reduced because the last station arrived. They stood up and walked out of the train. It was time to part ways.
Vijay – it was nice meeting you.
Veronica – It was fun.
Vijay – Can we be in touch?
Veronica – Here is my card.
Veronica gave her visiting card to Vijay. At the last moment, Vijay was feeling bad about this separation. He wanted to spend more time with her. He couldn't say bye to her. Veronica comforted him by giving him another handshake and started walking away. Vijay mustered some more courage and called her by name.
Vijay – Veronica!
Veronica – Yes!
Vijay – Would you like to spend few more minutes here? We can chat and check the moon!
Veronica understood his intentions and saw her watch. This was the deciding factor. If she says yes, then there is some spark between us, Vijay thought in his mind. Vijay was getting anxious in anticipation. If things work out, he thought he can even have his first kiss there. Veronica stared at him first and let out a funny smile. She said yes. Vijay smiled in response.
They both sat on the nearest bench. There was a big distance between them. When Vijay tried to move closer, Veronica looked. Vijay took his backpack, kept it on his lap, and leaned back to show her that he is not making any move and was trying to get comfortable. Veronica swiftly reduced the gap and sat next to Vijay. Vijay's heartbeat rose, he was not expecting this. They both maintained eye contact for few seconds. Veronica gradually leaned on his shoulder and slowly placed her fiver fingers between his fingers and firmly tightened it. Vijay rested his head on hers and saw the moon. His fantasy became a reality. His pounding heart settled down in peace.
Vijay – This feels good
Veronica – Yes!
Vijay – I never expected…
Veronica – Shhhhhh….Just go with the flow…
They both remained the same way for ten minutes. Veronica broke the pose and reached out to her bag.
Vijay got curious and asked – Is it time to leave?
Veronica – Yeah!
But I have got something for you.
Vijay got surprised again. He thought this day couldn't get any better. Veronica asked him to close his eyes. After few seconds Vijay opened his eyes and saw her. Vijay was staring at her in eagerness. Veronica slowly came near Vijay. He could feel her warm breath. She deeply looked into his eyes and gave a smile. Within a fraction of a second, she pulled out a knife and slid it through Vijay's neck. Vijay went into a state of shock and pain. He fell and started to struggle. Veronica showed a sense of satisfaction on her face. Another train from a distance came in. Listening to its alarm, Veronica ran away. With intense pain, Vijay closed his eyes and started shouting. After few seconds a splash of water fell on his face and Vijay finally woke up. The vegetable vendor spared was standing next to him with a water bottle in his hand. It was all a terrible nightmare.
Vijay stayed in a state of shock for a long time. When he finally reached the last station he exactly saw the spot he dreamt about. Everything was confusing. He walked towards the bench and sat there. The same imagery crossed his eyes and gave him shivers. Vijay suddenly got a weird feeling and took out his wallet. He opened it and scanned it for a while. From the clutter, he picked a card and freezes in fear. That was the business card of Veronica.